Hi there – remember me? Yeah, it’s been awhile.
I saw a fellow food blogger post a photo on Instagram last night telling her followers these past few months have had her so weary and tired that when she gets home the last thing she wants to do is cook and blog. It was comforting to know that I wasn’t alone. The political and social mess of the current state of things has me weary and my soul is tired. My heart hurts for so many marginalized people and at the same time I feel like I can’t do anything to make it better. I have still eaten out and I cook for myself regularly but I haven’t felt the energy to convert it into blog posts. I have felt guilty for not posting but I reminded myself that from the beginning I would only do this blog if it made me happy. While it hurt to not be the “achiever” I am used to being, it was best for me to live life without the guilt hanging over my head of getting posts out on a regular basis.
Something I’ve learned through the past few months is that a solution to hurt and unrest is community and food. Those two go hand in hand to comfort people, build relationships, and maybe even create world peace (too much?). I want to build a life around the ideal that life is done best at the table. My best memories are so often found sitting around the table eating great food with those I love. Even some of my hardest moments and toughest conversations were over a meal. Something about breaking bread together brings down walls and allows for you to get to the heart of an issue. Think about it – we use food to celebrate our proudest moments and console those when they are hurting. As my brother says, it is the sixth Love Language.
As I’ve been playing around with this idea of food and community, I knew there had to be some great books about it, and I was right! I recently finished a book called “From Tablet to Table” and it talks a lot about the first and last commands God gave were to eat and drink. In the beginning, he said, “eat freely” in the Garden of Eden and at the end Jesus said, “drink freely” – the whole rest of the book goes into how we build relationships and grow our faith through meeting people at the table and eating together. I’m now reading Shauna Niequist’s book called “Bread and Wine” and it is full of wonderful stories about love and grace and how we take care of one another through food. I truly think God created food for us to use as a way to connect.
So much of my love of food comes from that it ties me back to my family, friends, and memories we’ve built. Food isn’t fun when it is regimented and only meant for sustaining your body. While I wholeheartedly believe in eating healthy, I think when it is done in isolation it isn’t self-sustaining. For me, I need food and people to go together so that I can enjoy them at their best. These last few months have been true examples for me how food and community heals and grows you as a person. By having good food and good people around me it allows me to immerse myself in the present and worry less.
So that is where I am at in life. Healing, growing, and learning with my people and my favorite foods. I initially wanted to write a post to apologize to my readers for the lack of blogging I have done, but I am not going to feel sorry for needing to live life offline. What I am going to say is thank you for all the people who have told me in person that they enjoy following along, whether it be on the actual blog or on Instagram. My favorite part of this food blog journey hasn’t been the amount of likes, follows, or page views but instead it has been the connections I’ve made and relationships I’ve have built because of it.
It’s been about six months since I’ve last blogged and I’m ready to be back, ready to share my stories and of course – my food. I have some fun ideas about sharing others stories about their passion for food or conversations we’ve had over a meal. So thanks for sticking with me, if I could send each and everyone one of you a cupcake – you know I would!
In the midst of life,